Tuesday, June 11, 2002

Today was a tough practical day; I spent the afternoon at the doctor's, marching up and down the corridor without the oxygen and with a pulseox monitor on, so he could complete the annual form my former employer requires to prove I am still disabled and entitled to collect my pension and have health insurance. It has been 6 hours and I still ache.

Tomorrow I get to go grocery and pharmacy shopping. As soon as I stop typing, I have to work on the bills, so they can be mailed while I'm at the grocery. That also promises to be grueling physically. Real life is fun sometimes. Oh well, I can offer it up for the meeting in Dallas.

No original new meditations today --- too busy marching --- but I still have some wise words, in this case a prayer. The author is Fr Louis of Gethsemane, better known as Thomas Merton.

Prayer of Trust

My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you, and I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.

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